Friday, February 12, 2010 2:12 AM

Hahahaha,i'm laughing here but crying just now.

There's no use crying over spilt milk already.

I know how what had happened and i'm not going to swallow it down myself again.

That kind of feeling you wouldn't understand.

If that really makes you happy i have no choice.

I knew we are over but i didn't know so many things actually happened.

That hurts me alot wasn't the past,it's the present.

I didn't know that you could change your mind so fast or whatsoever.

Still giving you my best wishing anyway.

But still,undeniable that i'm still missing you and loving you.

Good luck!

The sincerity wouldn't change as long as you're happy with her.

I hope she could give you what you want that you couldn't get from me.

The previous post,the current post,all yours.

But i guess you wouldn't able to read this as you don't really care.

To someone out there,

hahaha,i believe in karma,and you'll get yours soon.

You just pissed me off.

Monday, February 8, 2010 10:23 PM

Called a friend just now but she didn't pick up,i almost cry out but i managed to hold it.
I don't know why must it be like this,that wasn't the first time anymore.
What's wrong with my life?
There's so many things were unexpected and i don't want it to be happened.
Be it i like it or not,i've no choice to make a decision anymore.

Seriously,i didn't really know what happened recently,i'm like as if i'm living in my own world.
Well,i couldn't care much how people thinks how they look at me,it's up to them to do so.
Yes,there's something inside me but i don't know what happened inside me,
everything doesn't go on smoothly.

That night,i love it,do you ever know that?
The laughters,the hugs.No longer existing.
It has become tougher for me to learn and get over,and i hope i will.
What had done cannot be undone,i get this and i know once bitten twice shy.
I wouldn't want to be suffered if i have a second choice.

Our promises had become historical,they couldn't never be accomplished together anymore.
We met,we talked,we fought,we loved..at last we were aparted.
This is the fate that we couldn't belong to each other.
I thought i could trust you,and i didn't know i was hurt that much.
The moment i think of myself,i thought of you.Everything was still perfect last month.
After a blink,everything changed and ruined.

Tears dropping and what the hell wrong with me.
I supposed to be happy instead,i could have treated myself better.
I'm just daft.

Saturday, January 30, 2010 10:49 PM

I knew i haven't updated for donkey years,
and now i'm back just because i'm too bored staying at home on a Saturday night!
It's really WTF and the thing is nobody is online ok.
I don't know why a dumbo like me will ended up staying at home while others are having fun right now =.=

Moreover my house is under renovation,no room and no bed,
just mattress,damn it!
NO AIR CON somemore!Arghh,i will die tonight.
I've just taken my throat medicine and flu medicine,
gonna suffer the whole night already,shit.

I've realized i'm lost.
Lost in every way,studies,love life and friendship.
I hope to grab everything back but i scare i would fall down again.
I've learn to look at brighter side,be optimistic be a cheerful gal,
trust me,
i will be back for sure! :D

Saturday, October 24, 2009 10:47 PM

I lost the interest of blogging recently.
I was quite busy with don't-know-what so i didn't intend to blog.
When i wanted to blog badly,there's nothing to crap,at least for me to crap.

However,i'm here today because i feel upset and wanna apologize.
I know whatever i wanted to say you will claim it useless or nonsense.
I don't know is there any ways to let me express out my feelings again.

I'm sorry for what i've done to you for the past or now,this moment.
After apologizing,i'm stuck with tons of words.
I hope i have the chance again,and i know i've gained the chance again.

You still remember the story of the McD glasses?
That's my little secret which i think it's meaningless to you already.
I don't know whether you still have the efforts on me or not as i know you feel disappointed at me for what i had done.

Again,sorry.I hope you read this.
I do not need your understanding towards this issue.
I would rather you blame it on me,at least i would feel released.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009 9:27 PM

13 OCTOBER 2009

A memorable day for the three of us as we were all in the emo mode.
There was a common feature which is due to family.
Be it serious or not,we would be upset or unhappy definitely.

If you were to ask me why do we face that problem always,i would answer 'i don't know'.
I've met so many people in my entire life and i don't see the reason though i wanted to understand them always.

Today,i'm in a depressed mood again,no longer the smiling face.
I wonder what's wrong with me and where did the problem lies on?

I've been thinking over the same matter yet i couldn't get the answer!
I'm not satisfied with the answer,i'm not i'm not i'm not!

This week is a hectic week which makes me feel that i'm lack of oxygen in my brain and i hope i could sleep forever.
The schedule is tight until i cannot find a day to relax myself!
I need a rest please!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009 8:14 PM

I cannot withstand the pressure from outside,especially my family.
At least let me do something whati wanted to,not forcing me not to.
Once i thought my problem can be disolved yet i didn't and now it came back again.
How many times do you want to doubt my ability?
I admire others as they can do what they want,pursue their dreams/aims.

I feel lost,i'm depressed,i'm down!

Who knows the ugly truth?Me,myself with my fragile heart.

I sprained my neck on Sunday so i skipped 2 lectures today.
Intended to attend school last night but then when i woke up this morning,i cannot endure the pain anymore.
I couldn't even turn to 90 degree,the first thought was like 'am i going to die?'
Then i gave up insisting going to school and had a sleep before i can go for any treatment.

Around 10 something,my mom woke me up and informed that there's a malay woman coming later to help me massage.
I refused at first because someone is coming to fetch me to watch physician then i had no choice but to let her come.

I was like screaming all the way when she massaged me,it hurt!
Moreover,i hate people touching my neck area or to tickle me!
I hug my mickey and bite his hands,nose and ears,so now all my saliva!

I'm feeling better then go out for a walk with someone.
I wanna thank that someone with my sincerity.Yo know i know ok?
Our dear secret we must keep it well.

My neck,still hurts.